Tuesday, February 27, 2007
tests that i just did to kill time. but their results are kinda true.
(1)
You should do a masters in business
You're a self starter with a drive for success.
You'd make a great entrepreneur.
(this is kinda true i suppose. im already dstudying this shit)
(2)
You Are 16% Slacker
You are anything but a slacker. You're truly a go getter.
You never let laziness get in the way of living your life - and you can't stand to see it in others.
(Hmmm. i wonder. i thought im a slacker. haha. apparently not)
(3)
You Are 78% Perfectionist
You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others.
While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!
(quite true.im never satisfied with things)
(4)
Your Learning Style: Unconventional and Insightful
You are very intuitive and ingenious. You're attracted to any field of study that lets you break the rules.
You Should Study:
Art
Art history
Architecture
Comparative religions
Eastern religion
Education
Music
Philosophy
(am i in the wrong course?)
(5)
You Are 62% Feminine, 38% Masculine
You are in touch with your feminine side.
Sensitive, intuitive, and caring are all words that describe you.
And you're just masculine enough to relate to both men and women.
(i think its true)
(6)
Your True Love Is a Cancer
Why you'll love a Cancer:
Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.
Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!
Why a Cancer will love you:
You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.
A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.
(haha. i dont noe abt it. ant cancers out there?)
(7)
How You Are In Love
You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
(i wonder...)
thats all for now. its killed some time doing it. im in doubt. i dont noe what to do.
i think im just running away from the situation. but wat am i supposed to do? It’s the holidays and all im feeling is not one bit of holidays but worries. How bad can things get?
(1)
You should do a masters in business
You're a self starter with a drive for success.
You'd make a great entrepreneur.
(this is kinda true i suppose. im already dstudying this shit)
(2)
You Are 16% Slacker
You are anything but a slacker. You're truly a go getter.
You never let laziness get in the way of living your life - and you can't stand to see it in others.
(Hmmm. i wonder. i thought im a slacker. haha. apparently not)
(3)
You Are 78% Perfectionist
You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others.
While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!
(quite true.im never satisfied with things)
(4)
Your Learning Style: Unconventional and Insightful
You are very intuitive and ingenious. You're attracted to any field of study that lets you break the rules.
You Should Study:
Art
Art history
Architecture
Comparative religions
Eastern religion
Education
Music
Philosophy
(am i in the wrong course?)
(5)
You Are 62% Feminine, 38% Masculine
You are in touch with your feminine side.
Sensitive, intuitive, and caring are all words that describe you.
And you're just masculine enough to relate to both men and women.
(i think its true)
(6)
Your True Love Is a Cancer
Why you'll love a Cancer:
Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.
Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!
Why a Cancer will love you:
You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.
A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.
(haha. i dont noe abt it. ant cancers out there?)
(7)
How You Are In Love
You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
(i wonder...)
thats all for now. its killed some time doing it. im in doubt. i dont noe what to do.
i think im just running away from the situation. but wat am i supposed to do? It’s the holidays and all im feeling is not one bit of holidays but worries. How bad can things get?
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2:06 PM
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Wednesday, February 21, 2007
chinese new year is always the same for my family. perhaps its because i have a really small family. anyhow, i think i love my family's reunion dinner. very different from many families. i doubt there would be a family with the same reunion style as mine.
here it goes. newspaper layed out in my grandparent's super long kitchen. only 3 families present. the poh's. the ramasamy's and the poh/lee family. plus my grandparents and another aunt all crowdin round the newspaper, on the floor. the usual seafood beehoonmee noodles, traditional pranaken ponte, kiam chai soup and chicken curry plus some rice and french loaves in the middle. den, we will pass the food round, and chiong for food if its running out. thats about it. very unique i think. others would be having steamboat, restaurants and all while we sit in a kampong kitchen on the floor. but i like it. i like this tradition of the POH'S.
visiting is only to 3 houses. granny's, and 2 grandaunts. and at every house, the only difference is the house and food. for the people would be the same for all 3 houses. cool eh? my small little family. haha. so, from here, u guys should noe how little ang pao collections are every year.
for today. today marks the first day of my school holidays after CNY. and. it sucks. home alone. all day. boo! boring.... and when im alone, i dont seem to eat as much. cant finish one portion ofa meal. i dont like being alone. dont noe how im gonna survive these 7 weeks. ARGH.
thats all folks.
here it goes. newspaper layed out in my grandparent's super long kitchen. only 3 families present. the poh's. the ramasamy's and the poh/lee family. plus my grandparents and another aunt all crowdin round the newspaper, on the floor. the usual seafood beehoonmee noodles, traditional pranaken ponte, kiam chai soup and chicken curry plus some rice and french loaves in the middle. den, we will pass the food round, and chiong for food if its running out. thats about it. very unique i think. others would be having steamboat, restaurants and all while we sit in a kampong kitchen on the floor. but i like it. i like this tradition of the POH'S.
visiting is only to 3 houses. granny's, and 2 grandaunts. and at every house, the only difference is the house and food. for the people would be the same for all 3 houses. cool eh? my small little family. haha. so, from here, u guys should noe how little ang pao collections are every year.
for today. today marks the first day of my school holidays after CNY. and. it sucks. home alone. all day. boo! boring.... and when im alone, i dont seem to eat as much. cant finish one portion ofa meal. i dont like being alone. dont noe how im gonna survive these 7 weeks. ARGH.
thats all folks.
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
my chinese new year wish: freedom.trust. get rid of my stinking rash character.
pri sch. i was considered naughty. i guess. lied to THEM and went to peace center or plaza singapura to eat, play and all the shit. i grew up in sec sch being too obedient and naive. i guess thats the root to my misery now. i believed that if i listened to THEM, one fine day, soon, THEY will give me some freedom to go out with friends and all. but that day never came. if only i was a little more defiant, perhaps by now, they would have ,lost hope in me and let me do whatever i want. i guess thats how most of my friends got out of that problem of freedom in sec sch. as hard as my friends could persuade me to go out, somehow i didnt dare nor had the courage to take the firt step and go out. for THEY made me believe if i could show THEM that i was able to be obediant and could be trusted, THEY would let me out. im sick of the.. when ure 16, after O's, when ure 18. oh. come on. IM NINETEEN. give me a break. till today, YOU ALL have to call me and give me a lecture about going out. please. YOU ALL are making me doubtful that i can even have REAL freedom ar the age of 21. im 2 years from that stage, but im not having what a fractoin of the amount of freedom others are having.
i want YOU ALL to know. that money is not everything. giving me whatever i want is not everything. ive had the opportunity to travel to many countries already. dont say. "girl ar. mama give u all whatever u all want, where u all want to go, i save money and bring u all. but u all must listen to me" i thank god i have u all. im grateful for whatever u all have done for me. however, its not everything. TRUST and FREEDOM is what i really long for. for i feel that im not being trusted enough to go out. im not even askin to stay at a friend's place or anth. i just dont want to be questioned so much when i go out. andi dont even go out often. do u noe how embarassing it is for me to turn down friends every time they ask me out? and IF i go out, i always leave early. is that not good enough? i bet pple are making a mockery that ive got no life and all. can u all be more understanding, trust me and give me the freedom that every teenager has? u noe, if i look back on my teenage days, apart from school, i dont remember anth. no thrills. nth but, home, school. school home. school is the only place i make friends. w/o school, i think i can just go and die. i also thank god. that despite not hanging round my friends after school or anth, many do not look down upon me but still keep me updated with things and i still have them to count for in times of troubles.
and. i wanna get rid of the foul temper of mine. i think its better now. but i still dont like it. i do things in a rash and den regret it. wat a bitch i am.
lastly, i dont know if i still have a best friend or what. that incident made me realise that i shouldnt depend too much on pple and for now, i dont feel like getting to know new pple to well. i dont want to know their flaws and start hating them nor do i want to suffer another attack of shit. however, i wanna thank michelle tan for being there for me. despite me not answering her on msn and her calls, she tried ways to make me smile. even though she didnt noe what was wrong. just her thought and what she tried really makes me smile. such a good friend. just those assurance that when ure in need, there is someone there for u is comforting. mic tan. I LOVE YOU! =)
thats about this long post. ill reply tags soon. rather lazy.
pri sch. i was considered naughty. i guess. lied to THEM and went to peace center or plaza singapura to eat, play and all the shit. i grew up in sec sch being too obedient and naive. i guess thats the root to my misery now. i believed that if i listened to THEM, one fine day, soon, THEY will give me some freedom to go out with friends and all. but that day never came. if only i was a little more defiant, perhaps by now, they would have ,lost hope in me and let me do whatever i want. i guess thats how most of my friends got out of that problem of freedom in sec sch. as hard as my friends could persuade me to go out, somehow i didnt dare nor had the courage to take the firt step and go out. for THEY made me believe if i could show THEM that i was able to be obediant and could be trusted, THEY would let me out. im sick of the.. when ure 16, after O's, when ure 18. oh. come on. IM NINETEEN. give me a break. till today, YOU ALL have to call me and give me a lecture about going out. please. YOU ALL are making me doubtful that i can even have REAL freedom ar the age of 21. im 2 years from that stage, but im not having what a fractoin of the amount of freedom others are having.
i want YOU ALL to know. that money is not everything. giving me whatever i want is not everything. ive had the opportunity to travel to many countries already. dont say. "girl ar. mama give u all whatever u all want, where u all want to go, i save money and bring u all. but u all must listen to me" i thank god i have u all. im grateful for whatever u all have done for me. however, its not everything. TRUST and FREEDOM is what i really long for. for i feel that im not being trusted enough to go out. im not even askin to stay at a friend's place or anth. i just dont want to be questioned so much when i go out. andi dont even go out often. do u noe how embarassing it is for me to turn down friends every time they ask me out? and IF i go out, i always leave early. is that not good enough? i bet pple are making a mockery that ive got no life and all. can u all be more understanding, trust me and give me the freedom that every teenager has? u noe, if i look back on my teenage days, apart from school, i dont remember anth. no thrills. nth but, home, school. school home. school is the only place i make friends. w/o school, i think i can just go and die. i also thank god. that despite not hanging round my friends after school or anth, many do not look down upon me but still keep me updated with things and i still have them to count for in times of troubles.
and. i wanna get rid of the foul temper of mine. i think its better now. but i still dont like it. i do things in a rash and den regret it. wat a bitch i am.
lastly, i dont know if i still have a best friend or what. that incident made me realise that i shouldnt depend too much on pple and for now, i dont feel like getting to know new pple to well. i dont want to know their flaws and start hating them nor do i want to suffer another attack of shit. however, i wanna thank michelle tan for being there for me. despite me not answering her on msn and her calls, she tried ways to make me smile. even though she didnt noe what was wrong. just her thought and what she tried really makes me smile. such a good friend. just those assurance that when ure in need, there is someone there for u is comforting. mic tan. I LOVE YOU! =)
thats about this long post. ill reply tags soon. rather lazy.
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Friday, February 16, 2007
EXAMS OVER. CABLE SKIING. SMSS/LUNCH/SHOPPING WITH 5/1 PEEPS
exams are finally over. lack of sleep, constant mugging, are finally over. PHEW!
though the thought of doing worst den last sem or repeating modules suck. but heck. im not gonna tink about it anymore. studying with michelle, melissa, jun, stephen was kinda fun.
yesterday. I WENT CABLE SKIING!! WOOOOOOOOT! finally overcomed the fear of pai-sehness and went with germaine. Oh man! i havent had such fun for a very very long time. THANKS FOR ACC ME ASSHOLE!! hehehehehe. she's really dumb. camera shy freak. but i have hell lots of pics of her. hoho. so. it didnt feel like exams though it was over. not till we started our cable skii. followed by a OH SO NICE coconut. was just a totally fun fun fun day yesterday.
today. the amount of pple who turned out was UTTERLY DISAPPOINTING. i swear the next time i organise such shit, ill call only those i noe are interested. whats the point of wasting my phone bill for ASSHOLES?? and pple. dont just say u wanna go. OKAY??? make sure that u are free before committing. dont tell us u dont noe ur time-table in which this sem is already ending. crap. dont make the rest like FOOLS. waiting for u all. calling msging u all. put all our hopes so high that quite a no. of pple are going. anyway. fuck all of u who played us like balls. apart from those pple, smss. FOUR pathetic us. chucks, von, audrey. went back. GOSH. their new year celebrations was OMG. so much better den our time la!! and we were the only 4 ex students that went back. such gratefullness we have. HA. we even gave all our sec 5 teachers oranges. mrs low is gonna treat 5/1 to prata near her house!! yeah! HAHA. and i swear ill only call those i think are interested. chucks and i had enough of all this shit. lunch. had 7 of us. as usual, talkin about sec school life never bores us out. HAH. von and aud went seperate ways. chucks left coz she was bored seeing the rest of us trying clothes, huiyu left after being tired from walkin. so the 4 of us continued. MIC!! HAHA. I SAW EVERYTHING OF HERS!! WOOOOOT! haha. though she didnt turn up for the smss thingie. she sure did make my day after that. =) the rest too.nth but fun when im with them. im glad. at the end of the day, there are still this handfull of us that are trying to stay close. =) I LOVE U GUYS ALWAYS.
pictures time. =))
going crazy after mugging too hard. didnt take pics with the rest of my study mates. so here is only one crazy melissa yeo.
popping into nice cold coconut after cable skii. germaine on top.
a sister is a lil bit of childhood that will never be lost.
hello bunny germaine. please dont kill me. ure a cute and innocent bunny. yeah? hehe. revenge!!
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Saturday, February 10, 2007
i had no intention to blog today, till i read mic's blog. the post is rather meaningful. or rather, its how im feeling towards certain stuff. i dont noe why. but everytime i have those friend friend talks with mic, we always share the same feelings and problems, its so easy to understand her.
anyways. here's a story taken from her blog, which she took from mel's blog.
There once a little boy who had a bad temper . His father gavehim a bag of nails and told him that everytime he lost histemper. He must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.The first day , the boy has driven 36 nails into the fence. Over thenext few weeks, as he learn to control his anger , the number ofnail hammered daily gradually dwinded down . He discovered it iseasier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.Finally the day comes, when the boy didnt lose his temper at all.He told his father abt it and his father suggested that the boy nowpulled put one nail for each day that he is able to hold his temper.The day passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his fatherthat he pulled out all the nails . The father took his son by the handand led him to the fence. He said " you have done well , my son. Butlook at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same again.when you said something in anger, they will leave a scar just like thisone. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out . It wont mattershow many times you say i'm sorry.The wound is still there. " Averbal wound is as bad as a physical one.
think about it. how true.
i have a friend, whose mother is really not feeling well. and is had to happen so suddenly during the exam period. life is just so vulnerable. today ure fine, the next day, u may not be. just like the case of mrs lee, our ex principle. scolding and jokin with us today. and two days later just left us.
girl, if u still read this blog, i hope ull stay strong and study hard. call me if u need a listening ear. ill be here. =)
studying has been.. i dont know how to describe. i think im wasting too much time on stats. coz i keep forgetting one chap when i go on to the next. someone, salvage me from this stupidity in me. a bad feeling that ill do worse this sem. damn. von said some words that encouraged me. i hope itll get me motivated. oh wells, i wonder when ill wake up from this unconsistent studying methods of mine. studying for the exams is like studying from scratch. wth. i need to work on studying consistently throughout the sem.
treasure what u have.
life's vulnerable.
anyways. here's a story taken from her blog, which she took from mel's blog.
There once a little boy who had a bad temper . His father gavehim a bag of nails and told him that everytime he lost histemper. He must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.The first day , the boy has driven 36 nails into the fence. Over thenext few weeks, as he learn to control his anger , the number ofnail hammered daily gradually dwinded down . He discovered it iseasier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.Finally the day comes, when the boy didnt lose his temper at all.He told his father abt it and his father suggested that the boy nowpulled put one nail for each day that he is able to hold his temper.The day passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his fatherthat he pulled out all the nails . The father took his son by the handand led him to the fence. He said " you have done well , my son. Butlook at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same again.when you said something in anger, they will leave a scar just like thisone. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out . It wont mattershow many times you say i'm sorry.The wound is still there. " Averbal wound is as bad as a physical one.
think about it. how true.
i have a friend, whose mother is really not feeling well. and is had to happen so suddenly during the exam period. life is just so vulnerable. today ure fine, the next day, u may not be. just like the case of mrs lee, our ex principle. scolding and jokin with us today. and two days later just left us.
girl, if u still read this blog, i hope ull stay strong and study hard. call me if u need a listening ear. ill be here. =)
studying has been.. i dont know how to describe. i think im wasting too much time on stats. coz i keep forgetting one chap when i go on to the next. someone, salvage me from this stupidity in me. a bad feeling that ill do worse this sem. damn. von said some words that encouraged me. i hope itll get me motivated. oh wells, i wonder when ill wake up from this unconsistent studying methods of mine. studying for the exams is like studying from scratch. wth. i need to work on studying consistently throughout the sem.
treasure what u have.
life's vulnerable.
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Friday, February 02, 2007
damn blogger doesnt allow me to have spacing in between my para's. so its all cram. sorry people.
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i needa get myself more motivated and have a stronger will power.
i tell myself i needa study. but after sitting down for not more than half an hour, i have to be distracted by smth. and the moment i get distracted, i get so "in" to the thing that i forget about studying. and thus start procrastinating my preperations for the exams. please please. i needa get my fat ass down to solely studying and nothing else. STUDY STUDY STUDY.
i was so gonna do my econs past years paper when i turned around and i saw the laptop. so now, im hooked to this darn technology in which i condem each and everyone of those retards who tried to improve our lives with technology. but this shit technology gets me hooked unto things that dont benefit me at all. apart from not benefiting me, i have to study all this crap about computers and their stinking technology. not forgetting that fact that this darn module is all so WORDY. and ms ladeedah does not like WORDS. wells. if i continue typing, ill never end. i have lots to say about how much i hate technology. hehe.
thanks to my 2 princesses online, im hooked to msn for the next 10 mins or so. for the 4 kisses i got from mel(vball) im gonna stay online for another 20 mins. hah. i miss vball. i wanna play vball. this sudden urge to play vball. im just throwing things up and slamming then down as if im spiking.
im going mad. HELP. S.O.S.
IM SICK OF YELLOW. SO HERE IS GREY.
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