Sunday, April 22, 2007
ok. i had lots of things to blog abt just now. but its all blank now. ill try to remember some. just things troubling me right now.
first. life has returned to its boring nature since i got back from thailand. they are talking about going back there in sept/oct and so im like freaking looking foward to it. i hope its gonna work out well and we can go have more fun.
next. friends. i dont doubt i still have good friends. but it feels so weird when some just disappear after getting attatched. they just vanish. thats my sec sch mates that im close to. then comes my classmates in poly. sometimes i feel im in the wrong class. i should have just changed and followed germaine. the other half of the class that are new, i cant seem to find a face that i can click with. and the other half that were from year one, some shit problems here and there. and i dont noe who im gonna click with. its as if im planning who i wanna be with but, the fact is, im not comfortable with some. maybe im just a fussy shit.
next. volleyball. i dont noe how to describe my feelings. i definitely enjoy playing vball and crapping with the comm. but somehow, i feel i dont have wat it takes to be in the comm. not only do i not play well. there is this feeling that i dont noe how to describe. oh wells. time will tell. and i hope i can go for those chill outs with them. darn family.
lastly. family. as ive said before. wat may appear as a happy family is actually bullshit. ive always been told to set a good example for my sister coz im the eldest. so shouldnt they, as parents, or rather, the father, set a good example. at least for whatever u want ur daughters to follow. or even better, set an example that relates to how u want to control ur daughters. u dont say and implement rules for ur daughter and yet break them umpteen times. for goodness sake, be a better father, husband and son. apart from that, when we, a family of 4, sit in the car tog. mostly only on sat nights, it feels like it is only a family of 3. there, the 3 of them will joke and laugh, while i force myself to sleep and ignore the surroundings. while forcing, i think to myself. how did i get myself into such a situation? the truth is, im more obedient den my sister. at her age, i didnt travel to town, have a boyfriend or anth like that. town with my friends was about the last thing i did in sec sch. just that 2 words that was meant to help my mother got me into such a plight. oh wells. thats life. unfair.
my distant cousin. though not very close, he still has the poh blood. as those who are close to me may noe how small my family is. thus, i kinda feel for him. ill just have to pray that the opp goes well and he will be normal again. when will such shit stop happening to the poh family man. he is only 19 this year. spare him. hai. brain tumour is nth light man. to those out there that like to use illnesses and all these shit to get sympathy, maybe u guys should be the ones down with these illneses. morons.
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5:32 PM
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
IM BACK FROM THAILAND.a 14 days trip.there is so much to say, i dont noe how to pen them down.better den i expected.definitely learnt and experience more than what ive given.trying to appreciate things, such as a concrete ground and a roof.glad ive managed to touch lives with that little that i contributed.overcame many fears, such as bathing with COLD water.trekking through forest fire.ive known more people from spore and thailand.people that itll be hard to forget.the Thais. -Dong. the sweetest boy. ill definitely never forget. -Piying. though the communication breakdown, i sense the caring and thoughtful nature of urs. a very sporting lady.- Miu. ur cheefulness and gayfulness never fails to brighten us up after a long day of work.- Champ and Bee. cheeky, fun, bubbly, interesting, sweet friends. - Kai. ur thai songs and cheerfulness brightened us too.- Pastor. I love ur pick-up!! thanks for bringin us to the banana boat rides. =)- and Noi and the rest, thanks for everything.these were the people ive met over my 15 days. people that we've bonded so well with and we parted so quickly. thank you for everything uve done for us over our stay in thailand. especially the farewell dinner, with fabulous ambience and food. not forgetting the lanterns that gave of fireworks as it lifted into the sky. WONDERFUL. thank you guys for everything that made this trip possible. it was hard parting with all of u. the singaporeanslectuerers. -Adrian. more like a friend. a very nice lectuerer. dai-dee king.-Audrey. though u never fail to pick on me, ur lame jokes did make us smile most of the time.fellow school mates.-kelly and joyce. ever loud and spontaneous people. definitely did entertain us when they were in their good mood.-yingning, huiyu, huifang. the 3 masketiers. yingning, the big mouth, very glad i got to know u better. cartoon.- russel, gary and george. 3 very nice, lame,cheerful guys.-jonathan. though he never fails to irritate, truly has a good heart at the bottom.- Hong ming and magician Ben. emo-ing away the last few days, but neverthelss, did entertain us a lot.-tiffany. my BRUDDER!! the shortest in our team. -wei zhen. quiet and has a strong will power. - shirin. STOP laughing away. hahha. but its kinda cute.-yanhui. thanks for almost drowning me.-shuhui.AND TO MY DEAREST GERMAINE. thank you for elbowing my at the sweetest spot ever. haha. definitely a GREAT friend. she scolded someone for me. haha. remb who?? thanks for everything dude!!!! obedient and grateful children.there are many things ive yet to say.really too many to write them all down.im still not used to living back in spore.adapted too well into the culture.simple is the word.ill definitely visit thailand again.visit the CSP people and to do more community work.i wanna do all these with my own hard earned money. (my aim!)i think, if i was in thailand for a longer period of time, i'd only miss my sister and a few friends. nth more. i never even thought of my laptop when iwas there. amazing.TWO THUMBS UP FOR EVERYONE!!THAILAND SU SU!!SINGAPORE SU SU!!=))))))a marvellous trip.6th of april.back to spore. sleeped, eat, pooped, pee-ed, sleep, eat........for the next 3 days till sunday. before i could even recouperate all my energy, im down for official workshop camp. there went my gathering session with my fellow serve thai peeps.9th, 10th, 11th.official camp. learnt many many many new things. training us to be trainers, referees and scorers. tough it was to cramp so many things in within only 2 days. i know ill definitely fail the test BUT, i never regretted coming for this as ive learnt many things i never thought ill ever understand or even bother to understand. apart from that, it had a thousand and one elements of fun. and EXTRA curriculum lessons such as the 31st hand sign. PU BOR!! hah. muderer till 4am?? my god. to end off with an emo note.my friend told me once that she was very fed-up coz she introduced her friend to another of her friend and they got very much closer to each other and she felt very weird. and i think thats how im feeling now. oh wells. thats how the world works right?
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11:46 PM
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